Expect the Unexpected I guess

It's so weird.
Sometimes you'll meet someone you never expect to meet at the most unexpected place and time.
Then the weirdest things just happen.

But I'm glad I met this one person and that particular place and time.

That person was exceptionally nice to me.
At first very annoying and I thought that person was gay.
But it turned out that,
that person wasn't.

I never expect anything from that person, but I get something anyway.
Thought this was some crazy person, but got a helping hand.
I never expected a text from halfway across the world, but I got one anyway.
Did not expect so much love and care, but I got it regardless.
Never expected to be such value to someone, but I was anyway.
So many surprises.

I was just thinking about a few memories that I'll keep to myself.
All the laughter, smiles and fuzzy feeling.
Thinking about it makes me smile.
Puts a sunshine in my dark cloud.
It gives me a heavy-heart as well.

I know that person will never read this,
but ...
Thank You.
I'm forever grateful.

Remember to keep that present I gave you in that red box you call a heart.

Unexpected Kitty! w/ Response from Alan

I got a cute little soft toy kitty from Alan today!
How nice! Thanks Alan! ^^
Really appreciate it.
Although I don't really know what I did to deserve a present from him.

So, Alan... did you have a hard time finding my house? Hahaha.
and I know I was really dressed up badly when I walked out of the house.
I was wearing a giant sweater and my old brown shorts.
My hair was tied up and messy.
Almost no one knows how I look like with my hair tied up.
Even if they've seen me with my hair tied up,
I bet they forgot. XD
I bet I looked like a Hobo too. hahaha

So, Alan how long did it take you to find my house? =P
and why did you leave in such a hurry?

I had brownies for you!!!!
Jeeze man.

When I got the message that Alan was coming, I felt bad that he was going to give me something and I'd have nothing in return. So I baked brownies.

HOWEVER,

When you showed up at my house, and when I got the present from you, and then when I turned around and I was walking into my house when I remembered the brownies.

UNFORTUNATELY, you were far far far away.
=.=

Dude, next time,
I'm going to your house to give you brownies!

29 Dec 08, 22:01

(Alan)ATL213: dang i got lost like twice. hahaha but it was fun lookign for the street. haha. and my house # is ..... in ur inbox of facebook. XD teehee

(Alan)ATL213: oh response to ur uhh blog.. took us liek 10mins or less umm i wasl ike OH CRAP ur dad opened the door, i wasnt expectign tht and got all scared >.<>

29 Dec 08, 22:07

(Alan)ATL213: U HAD BROWNIES!! OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sigh... ima ask for brownies everytime isee u now. haha

After Boxing Day

So Boxing Day is the day after Christmas. It's when people usually go shopping, but I went the day after that. There was A LOT of sales!

My mom took my bro, sis and I to Payless and we bought 7 pairs of shoes. NOT EACH! All together 7 pairs. I got 2 1/3 pairs of shoes. Will you're probably wondering what the 1/3 is. My mom, sis and I bought a pair of boots that fits all 3 of us. Hehe

Anyway, it was pretty fun. For once I could find shoes that FIT ME! Not like when I was in Malaysia. O-M-G, the LARGEST ADULT women shoes usually do not fit me. I get pissed of. My favorite type of shoes were sneakers. Those are big, comfy and they actually fit me.

Then we went to Ralphs and bought some juice and shared a 12" sub-sandwich. That was fast. We were done in I think 20mins. Then it was off to Glendale Mall. We need winter jackets, water-prooft kinds, and gloves and hats/beanies. You know why? Cuz we're going to the mountains. XD I'm excited.

We didn't buy much. I bought one shirt, kind of, from this shop called "Impression". I love it. The color is a deep dark metallic midnight blue. It feels so smooth like silk. It's like those shawls. I don't know how to decribe it. I should take a picture and post it!!! >.<

We walked around went into a lot of shops. It was kind of fun. I'm not the kind of girl that likes shopping. I guess it was because I was only window shopping and not trying on clothes and stuff. That is just annoying. put on, take off, put on, take off... vise versa... man like it never ends

Our last stop - My mom bought some stuff from Target. She got a car seat for my baby sister, Ellie, baby food, some college ruled paper, graph paper... hmmm... I think that's it.

Then we went home!!!

I know it seems short but we spent like 8 hours shopping walking around and stuff. hahaha

=D

Christmas Eve

Wow... I have not posted for quite a while. Nobody really comes in to read anything anyway. My blog is more like a place where I come to post about things I want people to know or realize about me that are usually things people don't really want to hear and I don't really want to tell. Sometimes its for fun. Sometimes its plain boredom.

I know depressing huh? Not really.

It X-mas eve! How exciting!!! For most people. >.>

This year and last year, my X-mas was just not the same. It was quite empty. I don't remember what I did last year. Its all a blank.

When I was in Malaysia, we didn't have the traditional Christmas, but WHO CARES?! You know why? Because I had my family. I don't just mean my "nuclear" family. I had my extended family and friends as well. Now, I don't have that.

My family. They're not here now. I don't have that love in my presence anymore. All I can do is send them a card with a note and write them an email. I can't get that hug. I can't see that smile. I can't hear their voices. And every time I write to them. I tell them it just isn't the same without them. And after I send that letter with them, I feel like those words are not enough and sometimes even meaningless.

I made new friends, but it just isn't the same. Yesterday, I went to the YUCA Christmas party.

And you know what I realize?

I realize I am not really wanted. I don't really fit in here or there. Everyone is so nice. So nice. But there is no acceptance. I just don't have that relationship with everyone else. Even though I have started to make friends, I still don't mean a thing. I did not go through elementary and middle school with them.

My friends are gone. 11 years of friendship just faded away when I boarded the plane. I know I made many friends. A lot are gone for good, but some are precious friends. Those are the ones I'll never find here. I look at the people around me and I sometimes wish mine were with me.

I stop and stare and wish. yeah. I do that a lot.

And when I want a hug, I can't have it.

Life sometimes sucks.

I want to rewind and hit the pause button.
Where is it?
Oh wait, there isn't one.

-Rules :

- Pick your birth month .

- Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you .

- Bold (or italicize) the best apply to you .

- Copy to your own blog , with all twelve months .

- Tag 10 people

JANUARY:

Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY:

Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH:

Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves travelling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody

APRIL:

Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY:

Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE:

Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills.Talk ative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.


JULY:

Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties instudy ing. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

Juuuunmey!


AUGUST:

Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.


SEPTEMBER:

Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.NOVEMBER:Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.


OCTOBER:Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children


NOVEMBER:

Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.


DECEMBER:

Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor.