Expect the Unexpected I guess

It's so weird.
Sometimes you'll meet someone you never expect to meet at the most unexpected place and time.
Then the weirdest things just happen.

But I'm glad I met this one person and that particular place and time.

That person was exceptionally nice to me.
At first very annoying and I thought that person was gay.
But it turned out that,
that person wasn't.

I never expect anything from that person, but I get something anyway.
Thought this was some crazy person, but got a helping hand.
I never expected a text from halfway across the world, but I got one anyway.
Did not expect so much love and care, but I got it regardless.
Never expected to be such value to someone, but I was anyway.
So many surprises.

I was just thinking about a few memories that I'll keep to myself.
All the laughter, smiles and fuzzy feeling.
Thinking about it makes me smile.
Puts a sunshine in my dark cloud.
It gives me a heavy-heart as well.

I know that person will never read this,
but ...
Thank You.
I'm forever grateful.

Remember to keep that present I gave you in that red box you call a heart.

Unexpected Kitty! w/ Response from Alan

I got a cute little soft toy kitty from Alan today!
How nice! Thanks Alan! ^^
Really appreciate it.
Although I don't really know what I did to deserve a present from him.

So, Alan... did you have a hard time finding my house? Hahaha.
and I know I was really dressed up badly when I walked out of the house.
I was wearing a giant sweater and my old brown shorts.
My hair was tied up and messy.
Almost no one knows how I look like with my hair tied up.
Even if they've seen me with my hair tied up,
I bet they forgot. XD
I bet I looked like a Hobo too. hahaha

So, Alan how long did it take you to find my house? =P
and why did you leave in such a hurry?

I had brownies for you!!!!
Jeeze man.

When I got the message that Alan was coming, I felt bad that he was going to give me something and I'd have nothing in return. So I baked brownies.

HOWEVER,

When you showed up at my house, and when I got the present from you, and then when I turned around and I was walking into my house when I remembered the brownies.

UNFORTUNATELY, you were far far far away.
=.=

Dude, next time,
I'm going to your house to give you brownies!

29 Dec 08, 22:01

(Alan)ATL213: dang i got lost like twice. hahaha but it was fun lookign for the street. haha. and my house # is ..... in ur inbox of facebook. XD teehee

(Alan)ATL213: oh response to ur uhh blog.. took us liek 10mins or less umm i wasl ike OH CRAP ur dad opened the door, i wasnt expectign tht and got all scared >.<>

29 Dec 08, 22:07

(Alan)ATL213: U HAD BROWNIES!! OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sigh... ima ask for brownies everytime isee u now. haha

After Boxing Day

So Boxing Day is the day after Christmas. It's when people usually go shopping, but I went the day after that. There was A LOT of sales!

My mom took my bro, sis and I to Payless and we bought 7 pairs of shoes. NOT EACH! All together 7 pairs. I got 2 1/3 pairs of shoes. Will you're probably wondering what the 1/3 is. My mom, sis and I bought a pair of boots that fits all 3 of us. Hehe

Anyway, it was pretty fun. For once I could find shoes that FIT ME! Not like when I was in Malaysia. O-M-G, the LARGEST ADULT women shoes usually do not fit me. I get pissed of. My favorite type of shoes were sneakers. Those are big, comfy and they actually fit me.

Then we went to Ralphs and bought some juice and shared a 12" sub-sandwich. That was fast. We were done in I think 20mins. Then it was off to Glendale Mall. We need winter jackets, water-prooft kinds, and gloves and hats/beanies. You know why? Cuz we're going to the mountains. XD I'm excited.

We didn't buy much. I bought one shirt, kind of, from this shop called "Impression". I love it. The color is a deep dark metallic midnight blue. It feels so smooth like silk. It's like those shawls. I don't know how to decribe it. I should take a picture and post it!!! >.<

We walked around went into a lot of shops. It was kind of fun. I'm not the kind of girl that likes shopping. I guess it was because I was only window shopping and not trying on clothes and stuff. That is just annoying. put on, take off, put on, take off... vise versa... man like it never ends

Our last stop - My mom bought some stuff from Target. She got a car seat for my baby sister, Ellie, baby food, some college ruled paper, graph paper... hmmm... I think that's it.

Then we went home!!!

I know it seems short but we spent like 8 hours shopping walking around and stuff. hahaha

=D

Christmas Eve

Wow... I have not posted for quite a while. Nobody really comes in to read anything anyway. My blog is more like a place where I come to post about things I want people to know or realize about me that are usually things people don't really want to hear and I don't really want to tell. Sometimes its for fun. Sometimes its plain boredom.

I know depressing huh? Not really.

It X-mas eve! How exciting!!! For most people. >.>

This year and last year, my X-mas was just not the same. It was quite empty. I don't remember what I did last year. Its all a blank.

When I was in Malaysia, we didn't have the traditional Christmas, but WHO CARES?! You know why? Because I had my family. I don't just mean my "nuclear" family. I had my extended family and friends as well. Now, I don't have that.

My family. They're not here now. I don't have that love in my presence anymore. All I can do is send them a card with a note and write them an email. I can't get that hug. I can't see that smile. I can't hear their voices. And every time I write to them. I tell them it just isn't the same without them. And after I send that letter with them, I feel like those words are not enough and sometimes even meaningless.

I made new friends, but it just isn't the same. Yesterday, I went to the YUCA Christmas party.

And you know what I realize?

I realize I am not really wanted. I don't really fit in here or there. Everyone is so nice. So nice. But there is no acceptance. I just don't have that relationship with everyone else. Even though I have started to make friends, I still don't mean a thing. I did not go through elementary and middle school with them.

My friends are gone. 11 years of friendship just faded away when I boarded the plane. I know I made many friends. A lot are gone for good, but some are precious friends. Those are the ones I'll never find here. I look at the people around me and I sometimes wish mine were with me.

I stop and stare and wish. yeah. I do that a lot.

And when I want a hug, I can't have it.

Life sometimes sucks.

I want to rewind and hit the pause button.
Where is it?
Oh wait, there isn't one.